I wish I could have kept this loving mare close to me forever. Shy was the most forgiving animal ever, I am honored she opened her heart mind and soul to me and accepted my love so graciously! Shy is and was a very strong mare, for what she has gone through in her 18 years, to still trust and love… I am not sure I would have been able to do it myself. This mare the short time that I have had her (since February 03, 2009) has taught everyone that has crossed paths with her a lot, that in itself is priceless.

I want to thank everyone for helping me save her, I did not do it alone! The countless donations money and materials, the countless emails, phone calls offering support. The awesome vet care that Shy has received from Dover and Ridge Runner. Ty to Dover feed store for the grain! To me my faith in some has been renewed, Shy came back to me for a reason… we BOTH needed each other and I am forever grateful!

Yesterday, I gave Shy extra goodies in her grain, which she TOTALLY loved, she loves those little debbies pumpkin cookies, I also gave her quick calm 2 times. I brushed her, cleaned her up so she was sparkling. She followed me around the pasture just to be brushed more and more and more. She was not herself though, I have to water down her tongue, it was cracked, dry, purple and cut up. This part of the issue with winter coming. I decided to not take any tail or mane hair, I have her in my heart… I will be ok.

Jen and Jess came around 4 and my heart sank, some how it was all not so real, until the trailer rode up… reality hit. I burst into tears and ran into the barn for a big hug. I had a friend over who was there for me.. TY Dee!

Jen came in and held Beebles while I took Shy up the driveway and over to the trailer, everyone was calling to each other, it took a little time to get her on the trailer… but I can’t blame her. The crying choked me up and part of me wanted to say fine, lets go back, but I knew I didn’t want her to suffer.

We arrived at the mans house and Shy cried out and cried out and kicked. I think this was the hardest part, I felt like a total cruel person. I did not stay long.. I was ready to burst… I didn’t even get a chance to give Jen a hug, I knew I wouldn’t be able to hold it together if I did. My friend drove us home… I was blubbering.

Beebles was laying in the hay, I went over hugged her she whinned, I cried. I went to walk away she came running up whinning I couldn’t deny her the love and hug, Dee on one side of her and me on the other we loved her and snuggled. Around 530 she let out a really big whinny, my heart fluttered, I think that was the moment Shy’s soul left the earth and she became young vibrant and healthy again and I knew I had big shoes to fill with her young filly standing at my side.

It was a little rough night, feeding time Beebles was looking for Shy and so was Maggie, they both are lost and so am I. I woke up at 5am to whinnying and both running around the field looking. It was hard to see but something they need to grieve in their own way. Beebles is still trying to nurse off Maggie and well thats not going over well at all, but as many can tell she needs no milk she is curvy enough .

Once again TY to everyone, with out ALL of you all over the US and Canada… Shy and Beebles ty and I owe you all!

I do want to say TY Shy for showing me its possible to forgive and trust again and ty for trusting me! PS. Can you give Willow and Mazzie a knicker from me when you get up there!

I took the donation button down and will be just giving updates of Beebles now and then, my home and farm is open to anyone that wants to come on over! Love to all!

Beebles napping

Snoozing girls

Morning nap

ON the trailer looking at the girls

Leaving

Good By my friends... I will see you all.

I wish I had a happier post, but I feel its important to share not only for myself but all of you that helped Shy Shy and showed your loving support.

Saturday at 5:00 Shy will be laid to rest. I can not have it done here, so it will be around 10 miles away and she will have those that love her around and it will be peaceful.

For some reason this has been the hardest decision I have had to make in a long long time and 2009 has been FULL of challanges good and bad and really bad decisions. I have struggles with this since Beebles was born, and watching her I knew she would let me know. Yesterday in the pasture she trotted off and her stiffle was locking up on her. I rather her go knowing a kind hand, full belly and joyful company and most of all peace.

I am still working out the details on the trailer so if anyone around Hampden has a trailer that they wouldn’t mind letting me use. Its around 10 miles from my house.

I will post more pictures of the girls tomorrow, I am heading out to go and love on them some more!

Yes, the ground was white yesterday, it did not last long and Beebles was not impressed with the *stuff* on her grass. She snorted, bucked, reared and became stallion like… the fierce pony!!! It was rather entertaining, to watch her and Maggie spar and set off farting and bucking.

Beebles has taken a liking to Maggie, where one is the other is, they play discover and love each other… they are nice buddies and thats good to see.

Shy is Shy, she is eating a ton and not really filling out on her top line, which bugs the crap outa me… but all the grain is not good for the kidneys thats for sure. She is loving having her own stall, I went out late one night and she was flat out in the middle sound asleep… sure all you mothers can relate right?

Maggie is doing good, loving having the baby around. Her back is still ouchie but we are working on it.. I was told it takes time.

I have made the decision to put Shy down this weekend. I walked out in her stall one cold morning and her tongue was purple, I am so afraid this winter she will get frostbite. That would be so painful and inhumane. Not to mention she snaps pops worse then rice crispies. I am not one to drug a horse up on pain meds, or make them suffer for my own heart, I am a animal lover and I have learned that fine line of when to let go. Saturday or Sunday will be the day.

I am not sure where she will be burried yet, I can’t afford a lot of money for a hole in the ground so I am searching around and I might even end up borrowing a trailer so I can bring her to Maple Lane Farms if it comes to that. So when I know you will all know.

I have some pictures of all the girls on a early morning catching a nap, Its hard to believe Beebles is over 4 months old!!!

Beebles trying to get Maggie up