Its a WONDERFUL Friday warm weather and spunky horses!! Its nice and warm out and looks like she will be blanket less 2morrow, think she is loving it!!

Mommy Gina took over my motherly duties, as I was home sick and a slew of appointments to attend to and also get the security cameras so we can hook those up. Unfortunately they will not have access to the Internet they will be for business and personal use. We just thought this would be a safe move to have the place recorded not that the horses are left home alone for very long to begin with.

I sold my Amish made bridle today to Cathy Maher of Canada!!! All the proceeds go right to Shy Shy, Maggie was fine with me selling it, she hates the bit anyways. Have fun with it Cathy and TY Rudy I hope it fits you like a glove, remember pictures please!!

I have got some more donations in, I have been adding them to the donations page. I am trying to think of other ways to show whats coming it but its hard to come up with something creative and efficient.
I will be making another run the the feed store either Sunday or Monday. For Denji, haystretcher, Emerald, supplements the vet would like her on. She goes through Denji like its going out of style, she loves it I damp it down with a dash of water and a squirt of mineral oil and she loves it, well she loves food period, even me chewing carrots up and giving it to her LOL.
We did pick up a truck load of sawdust for her stall and her day time turn in. She was just going through so many bags of shavings this was a economical way and its all pine saw dust so its safe. Once she gets close to foal it will all be pulled and straw will be added.

We have been taking her for walks as well and working on some manners as well as listening. She wants to go so bad and her body is just not in the condition it needs to be. I am afraid she will take it a little to far and wipe out or hurt herself. So we jog her a little and walk, she wants to GOOOOOOOOOO. She gets a little bossy so I am teaching her easy and not letting her be pushy. She may have been abused and neglected, but she is still a horse and needs some manners. She is coming along and getting better all the time.

I have not got any results back from the blood work, that will be in sometime next week so we might know what phase of her pregnancy she is in!!

TY for all the donations, well wishes, long talks on the phone, positive wishes and the talk therapy and letting me know its gonna be alright!
Love,
Shy Shy & Michele

I have to say Shy did really good and we found out when mom is around she is much calmer (ok yeah that makes me feel all gooey inside).

KK, she had a physical exam, the typical stool, lice eye and body check. Her weight gain is coming along nicely!!! Her feed will remain the same with the upped amount of mineral oil and selinum and vitamin E added.

The GOOD:

Her heart is strong and healthy!!! Her body condition is improving, amazing what good amount of food and the correct food does. Her eye is healed, the ulcer looks SUPER!!

The HMMMM:

She has more than brain damage and the story I received does not fit the bill at all. As far as a horse kick its been pretty much proved that that’s not what happened. The body shape and evidence prove that. She has a spinal injury, this is the scary part. That explains a lot, so along with the head trauma, she now has a spinal injury to add onto it. This injury is affecting her bowels. When her rectal exam was done I hear OH MY, this is just not right. My heart sank, it sank for Shy and then anger! She has a HUGE void in her bowels and the air is making  a big ole bowl in there thats storing the manure. This is why I saw the HUGE piece of poo that was hard as a rock. So for the rest of her life she will be on about 3 cups of mineral oil a day. Colic is something if she is not getting the 100% proper diet can be a reality. Her anal area is jelly, loose and almost droopy, she could not even take a temp her rectum did not even contract. Her tail can flip almost to her back, and her who region back there is just off. This can be a HUGE complication during birth. We are afraid that when its time to push, she wont have the ability. This is my biggest fear losing not only her but the baby!

Palpating. She could not give 100% palpating because of her anatomy it just was off, she did feel something big way up front. So a blood sample was taking so we could know more, she is pretty sure she is pregnant, but this test will also give us an idea of where she is in the gestation period, so that is a good thing.

She had her EVH (western nile) done, and she was a trooper took it like a pro!! She even took the small dose of sedative like a champ!

The vet attempted to do her teeth, she got one side partially done, but she was not having no more of that, and where the pregnancy thing she could not have no more. So she said that are not an emergency and its been a year or so since she has had them done. Least thats a good thing at atleast. She will never be able to chew correctly, the nerve damage is done.

We are to continue to keep the wormer treatment going, strongyles and tape are the big pest that need to leave ASAP!!

Hmm what else?? It was such a information over load it was nuts. There is a lot of speculation on what really happened, we have our thoughts and I will keep it to that, its not fair to say our speculations I am not like that. WE just know its not a kick to the face and flipping over was part of it. She will never be normal, will never have a normal diet. But her heart is strong and her will is even stronger, thats good enough for me at this point.

I want to thank to vet for answering my trillion questions, taking the time to spend with us and help getting the cobwebs that are woven around this mare undone. We will never know all. I don’t trust anyone to tell me the truth, at this point its not that important I guess, nothing will change. We can go on, give her the best quaility of life we can and make sure she is getting the proper care, treatment and the best living environment possible!!!

Here are some pictures, please excuse my look over tired and sick. Also this is my vet with me in the pictures .

Lice check *negative*

Not sure what we are doing here.

Checking her heartbeat. Shy looks interested.

Still checking and getting some rubbings from mom.

Here comes the Equine Cocktail

Shy before the cocktail, was not having anything to do with her hand in her mouth!

ooooooo I feel wierd! Getting the strap on.

Shy is like NO WAY!! GO AWAY!!

Temperature time. Did not work though

Mom hold me up please!

Some calming affection from mom. Man I love her, floppy ear and all.

They day started out like any other, food first once she is done then its loves. Yeah know food is important!!
Well I started scratching her and OMG did she love that, the right side of her nose was doing all sorts of things. I would stop and she would position herself for the next scratch. Her favorite was her armpit! O man did that make the baby kick… I was giggling she was REALLY enjoying herself!

So I am thinking its warm out lets go for a walk. She stole a mouthful of hay on the way out the door, she loves the stuff but coughs and gags… she just wants to be a normal girl. I brought her over to where my 2 girls are pastured OMG spunk. She spun and popped up. Deary where did this come from. She is walking almost like a yearling, you know where there legs and body are not on the same wave length.

So I walked her down the driveway, then Maggie (my wild mustang) decided to RIP through the pasture which in turn got the princess all fluffed up to the point where she reared and did a buck with a kick. She has a rough landing, partly cause of the loss of muscle and her hoofs. She wanted to go. I think the feed has kicked in!!!!!!!!!! She is feeling good.

After the little prancing trotting and pouncing I brought her inside she grabbed a drink and went to lay down. Think she needed to rest her sea legs!! Its SO good to see her spirit and wanting to romp and play. We try to keep it down, I think if I let her loose she would have flown. I guess its like when you have the flu one day you feel REALLY good and go all out and the next day you kinda wished you had taken it slow. I think slow and steady is what she needs, even though she may disagree but I AM THE MOM!!

Since upping her mineral oil and bran her poopies have been much softer, what a relief those bad ones were really worry some. I have not seen no more worms in a couple days, so I am hoping we are over the hump!

The vet will be out tomorrow. I will make sure to take pictures, and maybe even get my hubby to take some video. I want her checked head to tail, no fooling around! She will get her immuno booster for the baby, so we can get that on board. We will go over her dietary needs again to make sure we are on track. I taped her today and as of today I have her at 76 pounds gained. But before I officially say that I will have the vet tape her, so no one thinks I am not on mark.

I am still in need of mostly feed donations and shavings or saw dust and denji. I have been picking hay stretcher up for her to add to her mashes.

I tried to get some video but the excitement put it on the back burner. We got a couple pictures. I promise I will get some tomorrow!

Gina and Shy

Mom where are my sunglasses???

Ps, I have had a long day and thinking man this vet bill is gonna be huge, then hubby comes in with the mail.

Thank You Gail and Gary Rideout of Millinocket Maine, and their 8 sled dogs casey, Bandit, Magic, Rocky, Patches, Sable, Crash and Mellow. Thank you for the wonderful card and check. I will be hanging the card on Shy Shy’s stall door! Lets hope she don’t eat it!! Big hugs!!

WOW, what a snowfall! I can barely see over the snowbanks!!!

Shy greeted me with her typical knicker ( I look forward to this everyday). Then my other 2 girls chime in so they are all whinnying and nickering for awhile. Man mouthy girls!! But I love it.

She was eating her lunch and proceeding to smoosh her dish (for some reason only this dish), guess she has to keep Gina and I on our toes. She only stumbled once while she ate today, so its a good day. I was looking at her and thinking man she looks thinner, how can this be. I go inside scratching my head and talked to Gina. Well ALL THAT worrying was for nothing she looked at me head on and her other side was HUGE, I guess the baby was just all on one side. WHEW!! Don’t do that to me!!!!!!!!!

I gave her a nice long brushing, she stayed still and closed her eyes and actually moved herself to the spots she really liked scratched and rubbed. She did get offended when I was showing my husband Shawn how she has NO muscle tone and she just jiggled. I guess I should have known better, its not polite, sighs. She got her mane brushed and some showsheen on it just to gussy her up. Her eyes cleaned out, her bad eye boogers up bad. Her Tail brushed and her legs and belly. It took about 20 minutes to clean her hooves. My farrier was adamant that she has not had them done for awhile and how could she, she can’t even stand long enough to get them cleaned. When you do her front feet her back legs splay out and start to shake. I hold her foot lightly and when she needs to put it down I let her, then she always lets me pick it right back up. The thrush is on all 4 hooves and I need to start white lightening treatments per farriers. I just need to find the liquid not the gel.

I have made a chiro appointment for her to see if we can’t get her neck muscles to loosen up and get her hind end walking better. We are trying to get her back on her feet, but we need to go very slowly and one thing at a time. Her system is VERY sensitive right now and I am not taking no risk’s whatsoever!

We also upped her mineral oil again. Her poops we SO hard I was scared. This morning it was a lot better, they were broken up and not like they were. I am hoping that there is not intestine damage from all the parasites. We will see. She will have a complete head to toe, blood work the whole nine yards Thursday. That way we know where to go and see what she needs from here on out.

I am buying more shavings for her 2morrow. Between her nighttime stall and her day time turnin she is going through 1 bag a day. She pees soooooooo much its like a river LOL. But hey not complaining really shes drinking and she has warm water 24/7. I just bought her another extension cord so her heater will be on all the time.

I am heading to the bedding store 2morrow and buying a bunch of shavings, more hay stretcher ( we supplement a lot with this for some crunch) She hates complete mush… can yeah blame her. So its not hard but its not soft and this seems to appease the princess (yes she is!!).

She did not get out for a walk today, it was just to slippery and she is not sure footed at all, specially with her depth perception. I have also been using a rope halter, she FREAKS if you jingle a regular halter, but a rope halter she puts her nose in and is fine. Then I clip the lead on as she sees a rope her eyes bug out. But once its on she is fine. Poor girl!

I have to tell yeah, between being sick, with double lung bronchitis, drama, moving my other horses, home life, hubby being away and being a full time student… I feel drained. Until I get to cuddle with ALL my girls. Shy lets me nurture her and loves her brushing and scratching. Maggie and Mazzie let me scratch them and they groom me. I can’t ask for anything more and feel so energized when I leave…. ahhh the miracle of the horse!!

Keep the good thoughts and vibes coming cause its WORKING!!

Ok, I need to clear some things up.

I originally saw Shy, back in 2007. She was owned by a man and we will call him MR.H. This is where the conditions were BAD BAD BAD, which is who I am referring to in the original post. Then his friend we will call Miss.S bought the horse. That is where she got her facial injury and I have been filled in more but its moot at this point. She then gave her to Linda and George of sangerville (who also purchsed a horse who has now foaled from Mr.H). Linda and George have HUGE hearts, were doing everything they could for her and realized she needed more. When Linda first meet Shy she was leary of her. When  I went to pick Shy up from Linda I called her SHY SHY she picked her head up and never shyed from me, then Linda knew she was meant for me to be with her. Linda had called her Lucky Lady, so she has had a couple names. When I first meet Shy she had no name and Shy Shy was what I gave her (go back to my first post). Linda the OWNERS signed her over to me. You could tell they loved her and felt so bad for her and knew she needed special care. As responsible horse owners they set out to find it. I was not told of much else, as far as vet stuff. I tried to find records and never could so I had to start at square one and go from NO vet care as I could not find anything on her.

When the news aired on Friday it was NOT Linda who called the news it was owners before her who had no rights to her since she was signed over to Linda and George.

So I am ending it, this site is for SHY SHY no one else, I don’t care about gossip, about this and that its not high school and I am done, its ridiculious for this to go on. All I care about is Shy PERIOD, thats all that matters nothing else NOTHING!! So this is where it ends, if anyone has ANY issues. I am sorry but I don’t have time to hear it I really don’t. I am taking ALL my energy on Shy and my other 2 horses and my family. Where my PRIOTITIES are. So I am done.

Linda & George, you guys have my heart, for all that you do. TY for taking Shy and TY Linda for going with your gut. She is a gem and safe and sound, I think you know that now. Please take care. You need to focus on you and getting yourself better. If there is ANYTHING you need you know where I am! Shy sends you both hugs and kisses!!

Take care, with love

Michele & Shy!

Shy is REALLY vocal about her food! She whinneys and then its a sea of whinnies from all the other horses, then you will hear a snort, her tongue gets in the way and she start snorting! She has been a little off today, really lethargic and just spacey. So we are keeping an extra close eye on her and upped her mineral oil. Her poops are REALLY hard right now.

The vet called this morning she was not even plowed out, so she will be coming Thursday and will be there to go over her head to toe and willing to write a report up on her as well. She put my mind at ease that this is not a horse that had been taken care of. I am just really worried about her!!

I added more people to the donation page, the support for her and myself is mind blowing and I appreciate it!
KK, I have to go for now, she is tucked inside today, with tons of food (6lbs a feeding) and 4 feedings of denji!! She has gained 56 pounds since Feb. 03rd how awesome is that!!! Amazing what a correct amount of food will do for the body!

Shy went for another walk today, a little one and she loved it. Looking around and enjoying herself. I still have to guide her on the left side to help her stay straight but hey its improvement.

I just saw the news again and am pretty ticked. The former owner, had called the news and said she was not neglected. WTF??????????? She did NOT get like this over night!! Said she had her teeth done, NO VET I called had done ANYTHING to her teeth. I REALLY hate people that lie. I have not mentioned names and if this keeps up I will. If the old owner does not stop the harassing I will get authorities involved, and turn over all the photos and testimony to the stay animal welfare, and I WILL release your name,I have been nicer then most would be.

To me NEGLECT fits, are you saying really underweight is not neglect? Her feet in those condition, cracks up to her cornet bands is not neglect? Full of tape worms and round worms (many people have seen them and witnessed them in her poop) is not neglect? Come on give me a FREAKING DAMN break!!! You called the news to add that on because you feel guilty and you SHOULD FEEL guilty. You SOLD her for 200 bucks to some people in Sangerville cause she was to much work now and had a lot of special needs, instead of keep her. You made money off her and you should be ashamed. I guess this seals it. You are not a horse lover and to say you did not neglect her PFFFFTTTT shame on you SHAME ON YOU! O and to boot you call everyone BUT me to ask for your blanket back, the nerve. If you claim she was not neglected then please explain her condition!!! You make me sick! You should not have horses period. I am glad people out there will see through the crap and seeing a horse in that condition, knows that you got some wires loose.

KK I need to go cool off, the stupidity and the ignorance has got steam running out of my ears!!

Update, why people have to go there, I just got off the phone with the previous owners and they have threatened me with court. Nice huh. They said they have vet records GREAT, awesome. I could not find any so least that will be something I can add to her file! Court I don’t understand if you could not keep her and have to go this route its stupid and I don’t get it but thats ok. I will go, I will stand up for and there will be more on the news Monday!! Yippee. I stand by my statements 100000000%. If she was taken care of 100% then she would not be in this condition period.

I shake my head at this, I really do.

These are pictures from yesterday!!

peeking around the beam!

Just before I took her out for her little stroll for the first time!

Looking out the door way

Shy and her other mommy, that loves her so much!

Wow what a day. Shy was patiently waiting her stall when I arrived. Gina and I clean the BIG side, then let her walk herself over and she gets a pan full of denji. Guess we were yacking to much and not enough work cause she was getting mouthy (music to my ears).

I was thinking, she is making eye contact, WANTING to be near us, not taking her food and doing away with us. So I am like you know what she has not been outside in awhile so lets do it. I put some denji in a pan and put it outside. It took me a minute to get the halter on the rattling upset her so I switched to a rope halter and out we went. HER EYES WENT BIGGGGG. She looked around, saw the herd was in sight. She closed her eyes and took several deep breaths, and let out a huge sigh and just stood between Gina and I. That to me said it all.. no words can explain this none, you had to be there to see it and feel it. She refused the food she wanted to explore (YEAHHHH). We walked around, she looked, miss judged a few steps but all in all it was awesome. I let her go wherever her heart wanted to go. We went in and out of the barn several times, watched the herd, then finally back into her stall where lunch was ready.

Soon after Channel 5 News arrived. We took the long walk down the driveway talking about her and I opened the door and she was still munching. You could tell the news lady was WOW. I went in the stall removed her blanket and then she saw, the bones, her back bone sticking up, her ribs, her dull dander filled coat. We talked went over things and I was so nervous.

Somethings I wish were in the news cast that were not, but all in all it was a good thing for people to see. I do have to make a correction she does NOT have ring worm its ROUND worms. That may freak some out who have had contact with her. So rest assured if she had that you would have been notified. I think it went well.

So after the news left we were on a feed run and a few things that are needed for her. She has a REALLY hard time drinking cold water. I have left water for her once it gets cold she wont touch it. So I picked up a small bucket heater for her, another bucket to drink from. 4 bags of shavings, 1 bag of haystretcher, 3 bags denji ( she goes through these fast). I spent,

Pam even donated a long cord so if we want to put her outside fore a little while she can have warm water and this will help if we need to use foaling lamps.

I have come home to SEVERAL donations, I am in awe!!! I really really am!!!! Paypal is back up too.

$162.68 USD

Check the donation page for the latest donors!!!

Ty you all and I will be adding pictures here in a bit from today!!!!

I will be back in a bit to write more but wanted to put the link to the news story.

Its after midnight and I just can’t sleep, well I should say my body does but my little brain wont shut down, grrr.

I have been thinking a lot lately. For a long time, my faith in people was pretty close to nill. Between the true ugliness that some people bring to the world weather its towards animals or humans, the lies the mind games… it just makes you want to swear people off forever. I have that choice, I can minimize my contact with the world, I can hide behind a keyboard, order someone to get my groceries, have things delievered.. it can be easy. Right? I can talk and articulate what it is I want and I need and not have to depend on someone to figure it out for me (well for the most part). That brings me too, horses.

I thinking back when I first meet Shyanne in Novemeber of 2007. In a field with very little grass, a small little pony as her company and a shelter (if you want to call it that) made of wood and tarp, the tarp shredding into long thing pieces, I guess if you were color blind you could mistake it for hay. Indeed Shyanne was eating it, remminance in her poop littered with blue tarp pieces some small some longer. Her only water supply was a run off culvert from the road. Her immediate reaction to me sitting in the field was to stay FAR FAR away. Holding a bucket of grain in my lap, I settled in, something about this mare I had to reach I just had too. I can’t explain it, I still can’t to this day. Maybe I saw something in her that I saw deep within myself. Wanting so much to be apart of something but so scared to follow through. Always on the outside watching in, wishing I had the courage to jump with both feet in.

She would keep one eye on me, while pulling up roots and dirt, looking for anything to eat. I know the grain was like a drug, she wanted it she needed it, but I was in the way. I sat there looking at the ground, looking up at the clouds and inhaling the crisp fall air into my lungs, trying not to shiver. My arm still in a sling from surgery a month before. I thought to myself maybe this big black foriegn object we call a sling was making her leary, with the protest of my husband I discarded it wincing at the pain and cradling my arm. Then she looked up at me, maybe to see I was vulnerable too? Maybe I was damaged like she was? Was I threat? Could she steal just a bite.

I sat there for what seemed like a eternity, her getting closer and closer, till I see her hooves, long sharp and stinky. The roll of skin on her knee from a injury that was never attentended too. I hold my breath and close my eyes. Could she, will she. I feel the pressure on my legs, YES YES she took a bite, and backed up. I remained still, my heart over flowing. She kept coming back for more, I never touched her I never made eye contact, I was just there… for her not my needs to hold her and pet her and whisper to her that everything will be alright.

The days passed to weeks, I could brush her, rub her and put a rope around her neck. She was starting to trust me. This mare that was a handful, the one that had been through auctions 3 times, who had her baby ripped from her and milk still in her utters. SHE made a choice to forgive, that when Shy Shy slipped from my lips.

Time passed on and I was no longer allowed to see her, my bond with her was a threat. She was meant for one thing and one thing only, to be breed. She was moved to a place that was small, moldy hay and no shelter. I caught glimpses of her and saw her bones her eyes were dull and my heart ached. I filed reports, had my life threatned for doing so, to no avail I failed her. My heart sank. I lost faith I HATED people I HATED ignorance. I HATED myself for getting close.

My contact with her was permantly cut, no updates no nothing, not a day went by that I did not think of her. I often spoke of her and the ignorance surrounding her. I HATED the law, man I did SO BAD. I felt like I was in shackles I could do NOTHING. I could not understand while people ALL OVER that were like this were allowed to have animals, why was the punishment not stricter WHY. These animals can not speak. They can react, then they are deemed dangerous when in fact we are whats dangerous.

God I think I talked about these horses at this property to everyone and anyone who would listen, I just felt like it fell on heavy hearts and deaf ears. I was hoping she was ok, hoping I could some how get her back.

Then I heard, she was pregnant, with the stud on the property OMG!!!!!!!!! In her state????????? WTF you NUTS!!! One of the so called animal lovers ( I say that losely and with the highest of sarcasm) Bought her. With no place to foal, no common sense. Till she gave her away cause she was so called kicked in the head. So she was disfigured THROW HER AWAY??????????????? So if I get disfigured I need to be thrown away?

A friend was talking to me online, said this mare needs me. I looked and isntant tears it was Shyanne, MY Shy Shy. disfigured, thin, and eyes that stared and blank. OMG. We went and picked her up Feb. 3rd. She was mine, she now owned ME!! She will NEVER NEVER over my DEAD body ever feel anything but love and respect.

My heart sank. I have 2 horses, money is tight. One of my mares has to be layed to rest this spring, I just put one down in October, I was not certain I wanted to go through all this again. I will admit it I get attached and I do not use that term loosely. I can not just give up a horse, rehome it NO WAY. Something in me is just not going there. So I reached out reached out to people I cared for and shared my same ethics in horses. Treat them like you would want to be treated. Kind, gentle but a firm leader. I was beside myself when Gina said bring her over, she was my last hope, I did not want Shy to slip through again. I DON”T trust people WHY should I? I am not saying there are not caring people out there, but once your sour it takes some time and this is not one of those times I wanted to practice forgiveness. Not with her life.

When I first saw her that day we picked her up, she was like dead inside, food was her thought that was it. She could careless about getting rubbed, connecting. She was in survival mode for herself and her unborn foal. My heart broke, I was worried can I save her? Does she want to be saved?

Let me fast forward to now. The light in her eyes is back, she makes eye contact. Its NOT all about food. She wants to be brushed (just don’t get the baby kicking). She wants to be with other horses, she moves with meaning. Everyday I see her, she is getting stronger mentally and spiritually. I think she has HOPE I truly do, and you know what I do too.

After being pushed and proded, I reached out. I admit it and some people look down me for taking in a horse when I don’t have the total cash to do so. I partly agree but you know my heart is there and she did NOT come back into my life for me to turn my back. We have something, even the day I walked on that property and said her name her head darted up and stared at me… she knew she was home.. in my heart all this time.

I started taking donation, careful to mark each thing down and let anyone have access to the records to know, I am not shady 100% is going to this mare and only her. The pouring in that came and I am not talking just money, the support for both of us, the cheers come on Shy Shy your gonna make it. As far away as California, Canada and here in Maine! I feel weird I will admit it, how can I say Thank You? That just does not seem to be enough. It was not just me saving her life, its all of us, all us horse lovers that see these majestic creatures as more then just animals… but a meer part of us.

Shy has done more for me than I realized, she has restored some of my faith in humans. Not all there are bad ones out there but she is bringing the good ones out to the fore front in leaps and bounds. Bringing people into ours lives that are a true blessing and ones I am sure will be with us for a long long time.

My Shy, floppy ear and all, is a survivor, same as I abuse never leaves your soul. But you can move on and regain faith in those that do truly have kind hearts. Her foal is gonna be one lucky Filly or Colt to have a mom like her!!

Shy, I love you.

I did not get out to see her yesterday I was stuck home in bed with big ole fever and pretty much the same today. Holy crap who knew working in – weather would do this.

Anyways, back to Shy. She is still hanging in there. We have had to put her food up everytime we feed her she has seizures anytime her head goes down. Not sure if something is getting pushed or not, the vet can determine more next week. She wont have her shots next week, the vet wants to hold off and get her worms under control. So we are getting on a plan for that and during that process her bran will be upped and mineral oil will be added.

I have been trying to figure out how much it cost to have her a day, and I am thinking 20-25 dollars. She goes through a bag of shavings ever other day, and her denji are the most costly things.

I am trying to find a alternative to Chipin, I think ppl seeing the total amount, are thinking thats what I have on hand or thinking oh she is set no trouble. I am not being ungrateful at ALL!!! No way. I am thinking by May I will be back on my feet, I will be paid money that is owed to me and paid money back that I had lent out to others.  The vet as kindly told me to charge, and not to worry about the bill at time of service (always been one to pay then and there), which I think is very kind!!

I bought Strongyle care today for $6.49 which brings my paypal total too, $105.01 USD

If its not storming to bad out I will be heading out tommorrow. Saturday we will be moving horses so she will have a little pasture to go out into for about an hour a day at first. Her eyes brighten when she sees the other horses and I think she REALLy wants to go out, in a safe spot supervised. I want her spirit back, I am not just nuturing a skeleton and a unborn foal, her mind is the key. I want her to be a horse again not a prisioner and I will move heaven and earth to see that gleam back, if its the last thing I do!