As usual I walked in this morning, her head over the gate with a nice big whinny and a snort! Brings a smile to my face every dang time. No way I can be in a bad mood with her, she is to darn cute.

I was mucking out her turn in stall and I was doing something in the corner, think I was moving a hook, I turn around and there she is head to the wall butt to the door, wiggling her nose to me. All she wants is my touches and scratches. I LOVE it. She follows me around the stall, instead of taking a short time to clean she makes me work LOL.

Her diet has changed some, she is now on a little more protein to help with making milk, she is no longer getting as much bran, we have added oil to her food along with the more mineral oil. I have begun to cut back her feed some as well, she has gained like crazy. Proves does not take months and years to get weight on a horse, high quality feed does it! When I got her you remember you could see her back bone her butt was all slanted instead of round. Well she has junk in the trunk and back bone what back bone???? She is looking good, and bright full of life and sassy. Shy Shy is back and going strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Without the help of everyone one from the prayers, well wishes and donations I don’t know what would have happened. I do know she is smothered with love, has a nice place to live, has caring people who are around her and come and see her (I call these fans aka Gina and I’s friends). Above all she is getting the best care possible!!

The next few days are supposed to be really nice out so she will get turned out, and I am hoping for a quick bath with a blow dry. Her skin is bad bad bad. I don’t know what it is. When I looked at the bottom of her belly today right by the base of her hair was yellow flaky stuff. The tea tree oil and aloe helps some but I just don’t know. It reminds me of dry itchy skin. Could possibly be. Even though her coat is starting to get shinier and less waxy feeling. She is getting brushed every single day from head to toe! She loves it and looks forward to it.

Today I brushed her with a curry, hard and soft brush, she got her mane and tail brushed out and she was in heaven I have to admit. I tried getting her hoofs picked but her balance has gone down the tubes. I am not sure if its cause the baby is all on one side or not. I do know her equal liberium is off and her depth perception. So I left her alone with that one. She is scheduled to have a barefoot specialist out on March 21st, along with a massage and a reading. She will have a full day for sure!

I took her for a little walk, she stood in the door way closed her eyes and breathed the fresh air. She is getting really good about pressure, I have got her so if I jiggle the lead a tad and say easy she will slow down. I do have to walk on her bad side so she don’t go in circles. So we walked down the driveway and she felt the spunk. She started to trot and all of a sudden I am being jarred, my knee twist. She had lost her balance and if I was not there to push her I think she would have had a really bad spill there on the gravel. I got her straight, she stood with her head in me sighing and wobbly legged. I firmly told her, her sea legs are not ready and that baby has you so off kilter you need to WALK, not go calavanting off like a racehorse. After that she didn’t, she cleaned up some scraps of hay on the ground, stared at the herd, who was to busy eating to even come and say hi!!! So after a few rolls in the snow, leaving a nice brown spot lol, well they are not as bad as before, we walked back inside and had her afternoon snack of denji with some oil and water on it (just a tad). I guess I was not going fast enough cause she was in there whinnying and snorting away, I never turned around I just stood there grinning thinking, you can whinny all day long and be perky all you want dear, its music to my ears!!

O, before I forget. The vet did call with the pregnancy test results, its confirmed she is REALLY REALLY pregnant!!! Any one wanna take a guess when the baby is born?? I am thinking 3 weeks! Her right udder is getting bigger, I looked at it today. On her teets are TINY little balls of white stuff. I didn’t touch it this time. So that is solved!! Not that I had a ounce of doubt thats for sure. It was either she is prego or she has a alien in there!

I was thinking, I have a lot that has happened to me in my life, just like many of our readers, from verbal to physical abuse. I had a HARD time forgiving and moving on with things. I sit and watch Shy she loves us TRULY loves us. For all the crap she has had to deal with from ass hats and people only thinking of themselves, racing life, life in home after home after home ( I know she went through the auction 3 times), and she STILL gives us a chance!!! WOW talk about humble pie. This mare has taught me so much about forgiveness, never giving up and perseverance. Tell yeah I have learned more from this mare then I have in a long time. Geesh I spent all that money on therapy???????????? I should have just found a horse thats been through hell and learned from them!!!!

We are going to be opening it so Shy can have visitors. We have had a bunch of inquires about it and I was holding off. She is in a awesome space now, she rarely shy’s away from us when we touch her face.

I will screen people. I am not trusting with the background of people I know of attached to her past, I don’t want negative around her period. The property is surveyed 24/7 with cameras. Is a shame it had to come to that point. Anyways, back to my point that if you would like to visit her just let me know and I can see what days fit.

I will be getting more pictures of her, I am working on a little movie of her as well. From the first day to now. So we can all see her changes, not just in her weight but spirit!

I have to say Shy did really good and we found out when mom is around she is much calmer (ok yeah that makes me feel all gooey inside).

KK, she had a physical exam, the typical stool, lice eye and body check. Her weight gain is coming along nicely!!! Her feed will remain the same with the upped amount of mineral oil and selinum and vitamin E added.

The GOOD:

Her heart is strong and healthy!!! Her body condition is improving, amazing what good amount of food and the correct food does. Her eye is healed, the ulcer looks SUPER!!

The HMMMM:

She has more than brain damage and the story I received does not fit the bill at all. As far as a horse kick its been pretty much proved that that’s not what happened. The body shape and evidence prove that. She has a spinal injury, this is the scary part. That explains a lot, so along with the head trauma, she now has a spinal injury to add onto it. This injury is affecting her bowels. When her rectal exam was done I hear OH MY, this is just not right. My heart sank, it sank for Shy and then anger! She has a HUGE void in her bowels and the air is making  a big ole bowl in there thats storing the manure. This is why I saw the HUGE piece of poo that was hard as a rock. So for the rest of her life she will be on about 3 cups of mineral oil a day. Colic is something if she is not getting the 100% proper diet can be a reality. Her anal area is jelly, loose and almost droopy, she could not even take a temp her rectum did not even contract. Her tail can flip almost to her back, and her who region back there is just off. This can be a HUGE complication during birth. We are afraid that when its time to push, she wont have the ability. This is my biggest fear losing not only her but the baby!

Palpating. She could not give 100% palpating because of her anatomy it just was off, she did feel something big way up front. So a blood sample was taking so we could know more, she is pretty sure she is pregnant, but this test will also give us an idea of where she is in the gestation period, so that is a good thing.

She had her EVH (western nile) done, and she was a trooper took it like a pro!! She even took the small dose of sedative like a champ!

The vet attempted to do her teeth, she got one side partially done, but she was not having no more of that, and where the pregnancy thing she could not have no more. So she said that are not an emergency and its been a year or so since she has had them done. Least thats a good thing at atleast. She will never be able to chew correctly, the nerve damage is done.

We are to continue to keep the wormer treatment going, strongyles and tape are the big pest that need to leave ASAP!!

Hmm what else?? It was such a information over load it was nuts. There is a lot of speculation on what really happened, we have our thoughts and I will keep it to that, its not fair to say our speculations I am not like that. WE just know its not a kick to the face and flipping over was part of it. She will never be normal, will never have a normal diet. But her heart is strong and her will is even stronger, thats good enough for me at this point.

I want to thank to vet for answering my trillion questions, taking the time to spend with us and help getting the cobwebs that are woven around this mare undone. We will never know all. I don’t trust anyone to tell me the truth, at this point its not that important I guess, nothing will change. We can go on, give her the best quaility of life we can and make sure she is getting the proper care, treatment and the best living environment possible!!!

Here are some pictures, please excuse my look over tired and sick. Also this is my vet with me in the pictures .

Lice check *negative*

Not sure what we are doing here.

Checking her heartbeat. Shy looks interested.

Still checking and getting some rubbings from mom.

Here comes the Equine Cocktail

Shy before the cocktail, was not having anything to do with her hand in her mouth!

ooooooo I feel wierd! Getting the strap on.

Shy is like NO WAY!! GO AWAY!!

Temperature time. Did not work though

Mom hold me up please!

Some calming affection from mom. Man I love her, floppy ear and all.

Shy is REALLY vocal about her food! She whinneys and then its a sea of whinnies from all the other horses, then you will hear a snort, her tongue gets in the way and she start snorting! She has been a little off today, really lethargic and just spacey. So we are keeping an extra close eye on her and upped her mineral oil. Her poops are REALLY hard right now.

The vet called this morning she was not even plowed out, so she will be coming Thursday and will be there to go over her head to toe and willing to write a report up on her as well. She put my mind at ease that this is not a horse that had been taken care of. I am just really worried about her!!

I added more people to the donation page, the support for her and myself is mind blowing and I appreciate it!
KK, I have to go for now, she is tucked inside today, with tons of food (6lbs a feeding) and 4 feedings of denji!! She has gained 56 pounds since Feb. 03rd how awesome is that!!! Amazing what a correct amount of food will do for the body!

I did not get out to see her yesterday I was stuck home in bed with big ole fever and pretty much the same today. Holy crap who knew working in – weather would do this.

Anyways, back to Shy. She is still hanging in there. We have had to put her food up everytime we feed her she has seizures anytime her head goes down. Not sure if something is getting pushed or not, the vet can determine more next week. She wont have her shots next week, the vet wants to hold off and get her worms under control. So we are getting on a plan for that and during that process her bran will be upped and mineral oil will be added.

I have been trying to figure out how much it cost to have her a day, and I am thinking 20-25 dollars. She goes through a bag of shavings ever other day, and her denji are the most costly things.

I am trying to find a alternative to Chipin, I think ppl seeing the total amount, are thinking thats what I have on hand or thinking oh she is set no trouble. I am not being ungrateful at ALL!!! No way. I am thinking by May I will be back on my feet, I will be paid money that is owed to me and paid money back that I had lent out to others.  The vet as kindly told me to charge, and not to worry about the bill at time of service (always been one to pay then and there), which I think is very kind!!

I bought Strongyle care today for $6.49 which brings my paypal total too, $105.01 USD

If its not storming to bad out I will be heading out tommorrow. Saturday we will be moving horses so she will have a little pasture to go out into for about an hour a day at first. Her eyes brighten when she sees the other horses and I think she REALLy wants to go out, in a safe spot supervised. I want her spirit back, I am not just nuturing a skeleton and a unborn foal, her mind is the key. I want her to be a horse again not a prisioner and I will move heaven and earth to see that gleam back, if its the last thing I do!